I’ve enjoyed reading all sorts of witty New Year blog posts such as 14 F***s I Refuse to Give in 2014, some of which I can actually start to do and stop worrying about. However, all joking aside, this New Year brings me hope. It brings a chance to start anew, change my ways of thinking and my attitude, and change the way I view and take care of myself and others… These past number of weeks have been tough and I’m trying to take all that’s weighing on me and learn from it and view it as an opportunity to grow. Since receiving my “news” a little over a month ago, I’ve been trying to simply “be” a little more. And I have to say, I think I’m doing better at that. I’m trying hard to spend much more one-on-one time with Myla giving her my full attention as it seems to be just what she needs right now, and a lot of it. I’m trying to keep my patience while teaching her patience - (way harder to do than I ever imagined). And, I’m trying REALLY hard to not worry so much and simply enjoy what’s happening in the here and now and take advantage of each and every moment.
During the past few weeks, I’ve also experienced the loss of two friends, both unexpectedly, a couple of weeks apart. They were both incredibly genuine, sweet and caring. I knew one for only a few short years, the other I knew for over 30 years - but the amount of time doesn't matter. I wasn’t super close with either of them, but they were both certainly friends. Whenever I saw either one of them, it was so easy to have a conversation - something I find difficult when I don’t see someone often. They were both always kind, open and truly interested in whatever we were talking about… they were REAL. At the end of our conversations, I always walked away feeling uplifted. They were good people who left this world too soon… but it’s because of them, that I’m trying even harder to just “be”… and trying to change my ways of thinking and how I take care of myself and others. So in a way, that's my new year's resolution.
The painting above I did a few years back. I don’t know what I was thinking at the time that I painted it, but whenever I look at it, the word "Rebirth" comes to mind and therefore seemed fitting to share today. It’s somehow about all the feelings and experiences we have and how they shape us into what we are and how by learning from those things we can blossom and take flight.